learning to learn

funny how time slips in and out of your life,kids grow and no one gets younger.youth is something you only touch once.and it takes a life time to gain wisdom.even at the end of your own life's ride you will still be asking questions and why.love is given to help in times when fear and loneliness are all that seem to be at your font door.but people and the world love on condition,that condition is that you give and give and they will only love you if you love them.God sais he will love no matter what,no condition.and at the end of your ride he promises a new beginning even better than your greatest dream.a chance to be reborn so you can taste youth and all the things you think are gone.life anew.in heaven we get to love forever peace is in a never empty cup to drink from and comfort.angels will sing and everyone we love,  that loved and excepted God will hold our hands.so give thanks when you find yourself not understood,feeling left out discouraged and forgot cause that's the very time God set in place for you to raise your head and see his awesome power and opening arms welcoming you home. tough times have one purpose to bring you out of holes kicken and stompen reachen for the top so the bottom wont keep you in the dark.we have the  power we need to get through anything it's in the stories in a black book called the bible. keep looken up God is comen

yards

I was talking with my 8 year old step daughter today,as she struggles with
loyalty to herself and others.She asked me some things that left me in the midst
of fast self assessment.When I had to explain why people got mad when they were getting help from other people.The best i could come up with was yards.
I told her we all had a yard of our own,that we could mess up with as much clutter as we dared.We could plant flowers or leave it bare it was up to us.The wind would blow things into it but not nesicarely blow things out,so it was our responsibility to keep it clean.Not for others but for our own prides sake.
I then began to explain, how, when people clean their yard other people see them 
and watch to see how they do it.Thats how we learn and get insperation.Some people do as little as they can while others plant beautiful gardens with amazing flowers.Then i began to tell her that as people clean their yards, if they don't try, and others start to notice and help.Because as people we should help others.Then sometimes the people get upset when the helpers are noticed and given a hardy thank you and a congratulations for helping.Well now as the one that was helped got mad,and began to focus on the helpers yard his own yard was getting dirtyer.And filled with more and more clutter.Till pretty soon all that person could do was to point at others so his bad yard wasn't noticed.The moral of the story is to clean your own yard,and help others when you can.But you cant help what others do in their yard.Just make your yard as clean as you can and only let in the good of the world.Even then you will still have days that weeds have to be pulled and work has to be done,because the only thing constant is change.

finding the end is'nt what matters

To die is easy. It is strife and life that is hard and a struggle, but it is that struggle that produces men and heroes and the very substance that upholds our country's existence. Take control of your intentions and breathe life into your dreams. Walk with conviction and leave a path that only truth can follow.

 

my pot of gold

when i got to the end of my rainbow i found my pot of gold.and it was my dad and mom holding my family. because they are truley were it all began.thank God for parents and rainbows.

 

giveing more than things

giveing is so much more than the transfer of material things.it is also giveing emotions such as kindness,compasion and forgiveness.live every day like your life depends on it,cause every day depends on your life.

 

doing your part for you

if you dont get along with some one ,today you need to apolagize for your part,and lay down all those heavy burdons at their feet and let them carry all that baggage.when it gets to heavey they will lay it down too.let change start with you

 

actions

action's filled with wisdom are as powerfull as words of wisdom.
just as saying nothing can say more than you can imagine.
everything in life dosnt need your input.

 

j

teardrop

a teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water
but it can touch the soul as it runs down
someones face.

the heart

The heart has it's own reason
which reason know's nothing of.

what we are

We are all creaters liveing in moments that create
the next insperational moment.
Drawing all we need from life's lessons and
the promise that we to will live on in the words
of story's told, and in the vision's of dreams.

look inward

if you spend more time looking at your heart and
at your life.you wont find yourself gazing at others
and being so distracted with envy and spite that you
stray from your own path.
walk the journey God has before you,there has been plenty
of opportunity's placed there for you to experience.
don't miss your own life by trying to correct and lives
other's. love yourself enough that your life,dreams,
love,passions, and over all well being are the most
important things to you.be a slave to nothing,keep
your power controlling your life.walk in balance with
nature and you will find true and eternal balance.

troubles

Troubles                                            John Holman 1/4/2011

Turn troubles loose on the wings of the wind
they only grow bigger if you keep them within
if you try to hold on by the thorns you will know
the pain and discomfort from troubles that grow

creation

I am a creation of a divine mind. And I am a genius that simply was asleep, now with a new dawn and a ever present gift of imagination I to can soar with the eagles of freedom. Unlocking my powers with passion and viewing all around me with my heart.

real good

My eyes only see what my mind will allow and what my heart can take.

Freedom is knowing where you are, and believing that in the midst of rain it only gets you wet, you won’t drown.

When life sales us versions of truth and fate, we need to love the choice’s of want and wait.

Time doesn’t decide miracles faith decides timing.

  I’m not stuck. My roots are only growing deeper. I’m getting prepared for a better future and each day is a lesson in humanity and knowing

It’s been a long time since I had peace of mind. So I’m just going to sit and watch the storm pass.

find silence and imagine

Find silence and imagine these things. we are all fueled by illusions.

What’s an illusion? these are usually the only things we really loose.

A clear view that we as people create but can’t control. Wisdom discerns difference, and you only live your persuasions.

No moment is ever wasted. To believe it to be so, Would be to say a lesson can’t be taught and the sun can’t warm the morning breeze. for if one reflects and imagines no waste can exist.

Privately I suffer alone under ones own limitations. To see much more than most and so much in so many. Yet I feel alone and misunderstood most of the time. With still a great aspiration to still pleasure those around me. And knowing the necessity of love and other’s opinions. Greatly transform my opinions about the world.

Looking back

Looking back on my life, I can see so many things clearly now.

Although I am only 38, I missed most of my childhood due to

feeling inadequate, not good enough, and lonely.  I always felt like

I saw things so different than others did and that rules did not apply.

I know I was smart.  I learned quicker than most, but got bored.  I went

out looking for someone who could make me feel accepted like

I couldn’t accept myself and that’s when I ran smack into drugs

and alcohol.  The people doing those things seemed to have a kind of love

they shared.  What you did was ok.  If there was no answer for something

it was ok,  just find a new question, “ Wrong!”  Still I had this burning desire

to care for someone, just not myself.  I thought that surely if I made someone

else complete it, it would all fall in place.  Wrong again.  It all fell apart.

I fell for people that could never have filled that empty hole in me,

 though some tried. Others had their own issues, but I can say

now,  and not in a poor pitiful me way, I have lost my home, people,

and all my earthly belongings.  I lost friends, but I can say I have known friendship.  I am blessed, not crazy, thanks to my crazy life.    

last night in a dream

Last night I woke up in a dream, I saw so many wonderful things.

There were happy faces full of light, and some were sad with a longing

Distant look to be understood, as I walked I came across a church.

When I looked up, the sky was a brilliant spectrum of colors, my life was before me.

I did not see any bad things to speak of, I saw places where I kept certain things.

I saw my happiness in the form of a river never ending, I held my comfort

Like a new child. When I came to my love I could not find its place.

I asked God, what have you done with it? you know how much it means to me.

He simply said, I am your love I am with you always

You don’t have to search for what is not lost. John there is love in giving love

And I have put great amounts of love in you to bless those who will accept

It. love that you nor anyone else will understand until the time is right.

Love is found in your sorrow, broken dreams, weary travels and the way you give your heart

Completely. you have the love of a child that has no doubts or needs to understand why.

My son believe and it will happen, know in your heart that I am with you

And be certain greatness fallows behind me.

looking within

Looking Within.                                                                    John Holman 1/5/2011

Always be aware of your surroundings, don't accept the obvious as the answer.
Look at what you see and decide by way of questions and behavior
when in doubt ask question's even the easiest one can bring out the toughest discovery.
Apply what you learn to all of you, to know about a problem doesn't mean you know the solution always
remain teachable, not knowing is not a sign of weakness, rather it is a sign
 of desire and fearless internal values. Only when we see and face our weakness can we become stronger, by approach and fallow through.
To really have true conviction you must know what you are searching for and in what direction to search.                                   

the best things

The best things in life are unseen
thats why we close our eyes
when we cry and dream